Wednesday, August 31, 2011

No gym today

So no gym today as I worked late again....I just can't bring myself to stay up later and go to the gym after working 16 hours, however that doesn't stop me from feeling guilty about it.  I am down another pound today and I will take that.

I do hope tomorrow is a better day for the gym.....however overtime is awesome.

Monday, August 29, 2011

New computer, weekly weigh in.....and so forth

I just bought a Macbook Pro and well it is pissing me off a bit but I think in time I will love it.

Weekly weigh in.......

I have lost 60 lbs and I can claim it.  I am now 220lbs.....


I went to Old Navy and thought I would give their size 20s a try as I am in LB's 18 and they didn't shocked was I.  What a good thing it was that I took a size 18 in with me cause baby they fit.  I think the sale lady was on the brink of calling security.  lol  I can't believe it!!!

Now for confessions

I haven't been to the gym in over a week and I have no excuse for it.  I have eaten in a manner that is unbecoming a good bander and I have spent way to much money this week.  I am 15lbs on my goals that I set for myself of ten lbs a month and I am ashamed, but in a good way.  Just better motivation.


Gym every night this week even if just for 30 mins.
Going to a full liquid diet to jumpstart things and get off the carbs.
No shopping at all this week.

I hope everyone has a great week.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

I Can't Claim it Yet......

Well I did my weigh in on Sunday as usual and was down 60lbs on the scale since surgery....yay....I just love those numbers with zeros behind them.  But something told me that I wouldn't be able to "claim it" so I didn't and here I am with a gain of one pound on Monday and still today.  I know it will go, but man does a stall suck.  The gym is a stranger to me this past week, I do hope to change that soon.

Last week at my appointment my surgeon still didn't want to tell me how much was in my band so I asked if he would just tell me if the fill was less than 5cc, he looked in my chart and said yes less than 5ccs and I had plenty of room.  He is a bit strange, but I do like him.

One of the girls I work with here in Cali had the gastric sleeve today.  For the last two weeks she has been picking my brain and asking questions and I have been answering and giving the tips I have learned and I have also sent her to my blog and to look at other blogs that I follow as I wanted her to know what kind of support I have.  I do wish her all the best and cant wait to see her next week.  Good Luck Brookie....

I went shopping today and nothing I mean nothing fit.  I know things will fit, but ugh I hate leaving Ross empty handed.

Friday, August 19, 2011

"Doing Great"

Those were my surgeon's words yesterday at my appointment.  He loved the numbers and not just my weight, but my BMI and body fat %.  We chatted about my eating, hunger(or lack thereof), food choices, protein intake, exercise, my "strange" vomiting episode, and the fact that my hair is falling out in larger amounts recently.  After all the chatting he and I agreed that a fill right now wasn't needed.  His greatest concern was that he didn't want to get me to tight and me not be able to get my protein in and cause me to lose more hair.  He also suggested I start taking an Omega-3 supplement as he has had one patient(and he made sure I understood that it was only one patient) say that she had good results with adding it to her supplements.  We made an appointment for Sept 9th to do a fill. 

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Weekly Weigh In.....

And the numbers are......

Three pounds down this week for a total of 57 pounds total.......I will take it.

Thats all.

Friday, August 12, 2011


This weeks BYOC!

BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy – 5 questions you can copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – in an effort to get to know your fellow bloggers better and to give your blog brain a break!


1. (Originally from Draz's blog) I have to do some MAJOR cleaning tonight…which is prompting me to ask…what is the absolute worst thing you hate to clean or cleaning chore you hate the most? (vacuuming, dusting, laundry, toilets, floors, etc.)

When I get on my kick I don't mind cleaning most anything, but hate doing windows.
2. Brown or Black? Fly or Drive? Hot dog or Burger? Gold or Silver?
  • Black and brown, cant ever decide between them.
  • Fly every time.
  • Burgers mostly, but do love a good hot dog at the ballpark.
  • Gold use to be my thing all the way, but now I am a silver girl or white gold or platinum when I can afford it.

3. Repeat question: I’m going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them or even if a relationships exists – and you then try to describe that person in 5 short sentences/words.

Maternal Grandmother

At some point in their life, my grandmother raised each of her grandchildren.
Was a worry wort.
Was married to my maternal grandfather for only two years and had her only daughter out of 8 kids.
Was married numerous times, but married to each of her children's fathers.
Her sweet spirit left us in Jan of 1995 and I miss her everyday as she was the single most important person in my life.
4. Even if you don’t have kids, how do you feel about kids in multiple sports during their school years? Were you in MULTIPLE sports all during school? Forced or by choice?

Only if the child shows an interest in what they do.  I went to a very small school so yes we all played multiple sports.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Hmmm my week well lets just say I survived and am looking forward to a better one next week.

You Gotta Be Bad, You Gotta Be Bold, You Gotta Be.....

I was catching up on blogs and visited JJ's blog from: and saw where she was asking about theme songs and if anyone had one.  That just reminded me that yes I do have a theme song and it has fit for everything that I have dealt with in my life, no matter what.... Having a natural father that was a mean controlling man, the death of my natural mother at age ten, my little brother who is just 11 months younger than me, hit by a car and changed forever when he was 11, being sent to a children's home to grow up, being any overweight teen, having a very difficult time in nursing school, not being able to get pregnant, a divorce, and now having a life changing surgery.  This song says it all.

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my heh, hey
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
Oh oh oh Remember
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
My oh my heh, hey, hey
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
What keeps you going?

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Well Everyone Else is Doing it.....

so I will about my upcoming fill appointment that is.....

I have a fill planned for the 18th in Dallas.  I know I want my fill, but not for the usual reasons...I am satisfied with a cup of food for well over four hours, I am sometimes just not interested in food at all(hence the worry that I have lost my foodieness), I do feel good restriction, and I am losing weight.  So what is my reason you ask?  Well it just feels right.  Now if I get there and my surgeon disagrees then I guess no fill for me and that will be fine too.

So I have heard that Coconut water is suppose to be good for you just after a workout due to it having a large amount of potassium in it and since you lose so much during a workout due to sweating, then it is good to replace it.  Well I had some today after my workout and not so yummy.....I mean tolerable but not tasty at all.

or maybe it is just the Naked brand.

A Strange Happening.....

But then again we are talking about me.....strange to the hilt here.

I was on contract in Eureka, CA and one night I woke up with bad stomach pains.  I laid there a little while thinking it would pass, but of course it didn't.  I went to the bathroom thinking if I went I would feel better.  I was wrong as a matter of fact I didn't go and I felt even worse.  I became extremely nauseated, sweaty, and very hot all of a sudden.  Now this is were I should tell you that I would rather rip my own leg off and beat myself with it than vomit, no matter what or how bad I felt.  So I fought vomiting.  In the end nothing worked and I threw up.  I cleaned up and instantly felt better except I was extremely hot and saw that I had no color in my lips or face and felt extremely weak.  I only vomited once but felt weak enough to seem like I had vomited all night.  I then laid down with AC turned up and fan on.  I soon feel asleep and the next morning I felt as if nothing happened the night before.  This has happened maybe once every 3-6 months since then.  Nothing related to food or activity.  This hasn't happened in months and I had actually forgotten about it happening.  Last night I woke up with belly pain and thought maybe just gas, but no it wasn't and just kept hurting.  I soon feel asleep.  At 230am I woke up to the same pain and now nausea and as usual I fought it.  At this point all I could think would be what would this do Gerty?  I became very scared.  I fought as long as I could but in the end my body had to vomit.  Let me just say this is the strange part.  I vomited nothing, absolutely nothing.  I made all the right sounds and did all the right actions and nothing.  What I did get was pain and at that moment I could tell you exactly where Gerty was sitting.  When I was finished I felt better except for soreness where Gerty sat.  I went to bed feeling hot weak and sweaty with no color in my face or lips.  I woke this morning feeling ok until I tried to drink my usual Click shake and I felt a little nauseated but it passed and I have felt better since. 

Not sure why my body does that, but I sure hope it doesn't happen very often, that is scary with a band.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Weigh In

Today's weight is 226.  Down 2lbs this week.

Haven't done that well this week with the gym, but I am a work in progress.....aren't we all?

Tonight's gym included 30 mins on elliptical, 25 min of couch to 5k, and worked arms and legs on weight machine with a total of 3 miles and 750 calories.....yay!  "I feel good.....uuuuh"  James Brown or something like what he said.

Have a great week.....

Friday, August 5, 2011

No motivation

I have had no motivation this week.  I have done good with my food this week and have lost weight, but no gym time.  I am gonna fix that and go the rest of the week...........

Hope everyone has had a great week and have a good weekend planned.